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Well day two and I am still on the bandwagon, hey thats a big achievement for me! This morning was kind of nice the family slept in and I decided to get up around 6:30 so I could have a hour or if I am lucky two for alone time. I know its a desperate attempt but if I can't find it during the rest of the day, I guess morning will have to due. It works though because after years of getting up in the wee morning hours I have become a morning person. Yesterday, I started off so good, trying to have a postive attuide, speaking calmly and kindly to my love ones, exspecially my little Porter. But, as the day progressed and I got increasingly sleepy and Porter got increasingly louder- my patients wore very thin. My kind words quickly turned to angry words and my patients was thrown out the window. I need to try hard at keeping my words and tone nice. When I get frustrated with my crazy two year old I take it out on my husband. Its so wrong of me to do but I do and I know I am doing it and I don't stop. Today I will start new again and try harder to reach this goal. I prayer for it every morning that I will be blessed with patients, I feel the Lords help and sometimes, well a lot of times I feel his dissapointment. So today I will try my hardest to make him proud of me and me of myself. I will try to be caring and kind. I will try to have a calm, respectful tone. I will try to see the good in those around me and not be so quick to anger or judge. I will try to make those around me feel like the are the most important and that what they are saying matters to me, I will try to listen, to really listen. I will try and then tomorrow I will try again.
I AM GRATEFUL......
Today I gratiful for sleeping children, for a quiet peaceful morning. I am grateful that, that quiet will soon come to an end and that I will be surronded by the love and laughter of two small children. I am grateful that my husband has a good job to go to and a reliable car to take him there. I am grateful for good friends that will give me some adult conversation while our kids play together. I am grateful for cheap rent and good weather and a stroller so I can get fresh air and go on a walk. I am grateful and I will try my hardest to keep that attuide all day.

THOUGHTS ON TODAY'S CONFERENCE TALK: Respect and Reverence

" While we may not see an immediate, miraculous transformation as surely as the Lord lives, a quiet on will take lae. The spiritual power in the lives of each memeber and in the Church will increase. The Lord will pour out his Spirit upon us more abundantly. We will be less troubled, less confused. We will find revealed answers to personel and family promblems."

To recieve the Lord's direction we need to be reverent and respectful to the spirit, we need to quiet our voice and listen for his.

peace out - until we meet again