Sunday, January 23, 2011

Break down on Hope

This week I have to admit I have slacked a little bit. However, I did recognized it and tryed to get back on track. I really want to reach this goal, if its the one I keep that works for me. I have continued to study the concepts of Faith, Hope, and Charity--since I feel these are thee things I personally really need to work on and understand. This morning I read an old conference talk entitled The Infinite Power of Hope, by President Dieter F. Uchdorf. It was very helpful in understanding Hope and what the presences or lack of in our lives can do and lead to. He described the importance of Hope in our lives this way, "Hope has the power to fill our lives with happiness. It's absence-when the desires of our heart is delayed - can make the heart sick." I really connected with this statement and it made me realize that for the last little while, in my life, hope has been missing. Prayers and desires of my heart were not fulfilled and my hope was then replaced with despere and resentment. I know what that feels like and its not all that great. The Lord allows us to feel despair because as it says in the scriptures, " there must be opposition in all things." If we never feel sadness what would happiness mean to us. So if we have never known despair what would Hope then mean to us. President Uchtdorf said this.......

"So it is with faith, hope, and charity. Doubt, despair, and failure to care for our fellowmen lead us into temptation, which can cause us to forfeit choice and precious blessings.
The adversary uses despair to bind hearts and minds in suffocating darkness. Despair drains from us all that is vibrant and joyful and leaves behind the empty remnants of what life was meant to be. Despair kills ambition, advances sickness, pollutes the soul, and deadens the heart. Despair can seem like a staircase that leads only and forever downward.


Hope, on the other hand, is like the beam of sunlight rising up and above the horizon of our present circumstances. It pierces the darkness with a brilliant dawn. It encourages and inspires us to place our trust in the loving care of an eternal Heavenly Father, who has prepared a way for those who seek for eternal truth in a world of relativism, confusion, and of fear."

I relate so much to the part were he talks about how despair leaves behind the empty remnants of what life was meant to be. I had always felt like if I lived the way I was suppose to then things would just go according to my plan. Sure, I have had occasions in my early life were things didn't go according to plan but they always worked out. So after I graduated from college and had found something that I loved to do I figured when the time came, if I prayed really hard, I would get a teaching job. It didn't work out so, I was extremely disappointed in myself, and let resentment take over. Instead, of realizing that my Father in Heaven had a plan for me, that I was at my current job for a reason and put my whole faith and trust in him. I was full of resentment, lost my faith in his plan, and choice to allow my self to feel sorry for myself for going on two years. I would think often about how things would be so much better if it had turned out the way it was suppose. But, know looking back there were lessons to be learned, I realize that know. This journey has opened up new doors, given my new options, I am gratify for that.

President Uchtdorf then goes on to explain the gospel definition of the word Hope.

"Hope is not knowledge, but rather the abiding trust that the Lord will fulfill His promise to us. It is confidence that if we live according to God’s laws and the words of His prophets now, we will receive desired blessings in the future.1 It is believing and expecting that our prayers will be answered. It is manifest in confidence, optimism, enthusiasm, and patient perseverance.
In the language of the gospel, this hope is sure, unwavering, and active. The prophets of old speak of a “firm hope”
and a “lively hope.” It is a hope glorifying God through good works. With hope comes joy and happiness. With hope, we can “have patience, and bear . . . [our] afflictions.”

'There may be times when we must make a courageous decision to hope even when everything around us contradicts this hope. Like Father Abraham, we will “against hope [believe] in hope.” Or, as one writer expressed, “in the depth of winter, [we find] within [us] an invincible summer.”

Yesterday I read a conference entitled The Rock of Our Redeemer, given by Elder Wilford W. Andersen . One particular part in this talk brought me both to tears and to a realization of all that I had somehow let slip away. It was a story about a family going through a very difficult trail and how they put their complete faith in the Gospel and its teachings. The father was fighting a very uphill battle with cancer. After a difficult week he Doctor gave the family the news that there was nothing more they could do for him. With that news the father looked at his family and said, " Does anyone here have a problem with the plan of salvation?" There simply faith and hope in the gospel teachings and in the Savior gave them the peace and comfort they needed to get through that very difficult time. I realized how much I lacked that, I little faith in my fathers plan and in his teachings I had. I am working on it, finding my way back!

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Faith, Hope,Charity

This week I have been studying the concept of Faith, Hope, and Charity and how we can apply these things in our daily lives. First I want to start out with the defination of all three:

Faith: To have a confidence in something or someone, To hope for things which are not seen but which are true, is centered in Christ, and developed by obdience and righteousness.

Moroni 7 Vs. 26

.... Whatsoever thing, ye shall ask the Father in my name, which is good, in faith, beieving that ye shall recieve, behold it shall be done unto you.

Hope: A strong belief, hope is a feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn our for the best, is given through the Atonement of Christ, Faith and Hope walk hand in hand can not have one without the other, is developed through pure humality

Moroni Chapter 7 Vs.

...Hope through theatonement of christ and the power of his resurrection, to be raised unto life eternal, and this because of yor faith in him according to the promise.

Charity: The pure love of Christ -

see Moroni Chapter 7 Versue 45

...And Charity suffereth long, is kind, and envieth not, and is not puffed up, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil, and rejoiceth not in iniquity but rejoiceth in the truth beartheth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.

How then do we allow these three principles to take hold in our lives? It is something that I have clearly struggled with. I always thought it was just the charity part that I struggled with but after studying it out I have come to the conclusion it is all three. Because, you can not have charity without faith and hope, through which the pure love of Christ is developed. Hope is sprung from faith and the by-product is charity. In the book No One Can Take Your Place Sherry Dew dedicates a whole chapter to these concepts. Using the life of Majorie Pay Hinckley to exemplifiy them so clearly.


It feels like this is a really hard thing to do sometimes and has been hard for me to do as of late. I have been so focused these last couple of years of my hardships, and on my dissappointments, and feelings of failure that I have put all my focus inward instead of outward. My attuide and relationships have suffered greatly because of this. In place of optimism I have turned to a pestumess. My feelings of gratitude have turned to feelings of why me, I have forgotten.

There is a story in his book where Majorie's grandchildren descripe talking to their grandmother. "....I never talk with Grandma that I don't feel a surge of energy. If she thinks I can do something, then I can." I want my family and friends to feel that eveytime they talk to me.

Sherry Dew describled how one is when they let the pure love of Christ or charity rule in their lives. " It was the pure love of Christ that allowed her to stop worrying about how the world saw and treated her, and left her free to focus her attention on others. It was the pure love of Christ that allowed her to rejoice in the accomplishments of others without feeling jealous or intimidated; to focus intently on others rather than worry how she was being viewed. It was the pure love of Christ that, over time, made her oblivious the the enticements of the world. It was because she was filled with the pure love of Christ that she never failed to have the impact on others she had. And the results were stunning."

I need to remember not to grieve over my dissapointments but to rejoice in the new learning experiences, people, and adventures they bring into my life. The Lord knows me, has a plan for me, and everything that happens in my life is part of that plan and will help me reach my final destination. As Majorie put it..." Don't grieve over the cherries. Enjoy the pineapple and mangoes."

Never focus on what you don't have or you might miss some important stuff. Remember that those around you exspecially that person you have choicen to spend eternatity with are not perfect. She put it this way, .." I try to remember that he isn't perfect, just almost perfect. I am grateful to share his life with him. " I have struggled with that through the past years. I want to look back on my marraige and remember the good times, the good things, the reasons I love him, find joy in our journey hand in hand.

Have hope that Christ's hand is guiding you life . Have faith that he knows you, your desires, and hears your prayers. And then turn your thoughts always outward instead of inward.

President Hinckely once said, ... " All of us are largely the product of the lives that touch ours."

And above all remember that happiness is a choice.

" Living the gospel is the only way to be happy and that being happy is a choice."




Sunday, January 9, 2011

Let's try this again....

I really starte of the spirtual journey with such vigor, but ofcourse life got busy and my vigor burned out! As I start a new year 2011 I am making it my personal goal to find my testimony again. I feel like the las two years it has been lost by the way side somewhere. My faith has been shocken a time or two and I never fully recovered. I became lazy and let other thing take over. It is my mission to find my faith again, to become a true follower of my savior and his gospel. To have a true and deep understand of his teachings, of our purpose, and find true and everlasting happiness. I will achieve this by:

1. Setting aside thirty mintues of gospel/scripture study time each night after Porter is asleep.
2. Writting in this online journel everyday, know I am having a new arrival to our family in March so some entries around that time could be small. But I would like to atleast write my blessing of the day down.
3. Try to have scripture study and prayer with Kevin each night.
4. Continue Family prayer
5. Each monday try to have a small family home evening, small spirtual thought, a scripture, and prayer, and possiable a treat.

So I know it is late but today is my first day on this journey.