Yesterday was rough......

Yesterday was rough there is no way around it. I was in a funk that lastest all day and made me angry towards those I love. I felt bad for myself about everything. I guess I read to many blogs where it looks like the moms are wonder women. They have the perfect home, which is perfectly decorated, they have creative fun activites for the kids to do, and make wonderful meals every night. How do they do it I can't manage, I try my best which is all I can do. But, it was making me down among other things. Sometimes, every now and then I still miss teaching. I still have moments where I wonder if that will ever happen, how it will happen if I am out of the field completely. It scares me because I want it so bad. So all day I had the urge on my shoulder to read my scriptures, so at nap time i did. I still don't know what will happen, I think that my Heavenly Father gave me those talents and the opportunity to get my degree he intends on me using it at one point or another, to help his sheep. It will happen I just have to wait for us time. I am where he wants me to be now that I am aware of, because despite trying it has never happened. I don't now I will try to do better and have more faith.